When Life Takes a Turn

Life is what happens while you are making other plans. Ain't it the truth.

You can control yourself and NOTHING else in life. Sometimes others decisions cause your life to spin out of control and while your world is falling apart you just spin and spin and spin. Then when you think you have stopped spinning-BANG! the spin begins again even more violently and the helpless feeling you felt before is nothing compared to what you feel now.

If you ever feel the spinning slow, you think one of two things: the end of the nightmare has finally ended-WHEW! or this is the eye passing by and soon the whirlwind will come back with a vengence and hit you from the opposite direction. So far I have only experienced the latter.

Sadly I do not even think I have seen the eye yet. While I will welcome it, I will use the time to prepare for round two because I know it will be coming.

Sadly.

When Children Go Astray

No matter what you do and how you raise your children they will do as they want. The Bible says, Train a child up in the way he should grow and when he is older he will not stray from it." I can tell you first hand this is a lie.

I raised my sons in an intact family with love and honest, with morality and morals and my oldest has strayed. I am choosing not to go into details but it is safe to say my son is someone I no longer recognize as the caring son we raised into a caring and loving father and husband. He is someone else. No drugs, alcohol, tabaco or other addiction has afflicted my first born. Rather it is the stress of having seriously ill infants. While they are now reasonably healthy toddlers my son has lost it from the stress and begun a life carefree of what he was raised to value. I have no answers, only more questions. The biggest question is this: where is my son? I know where he resides. I know where he works. What I do not know is the person inside that body? The body looks the same but when we talk it is like I do not know him.

I miss my son. I am not sure I will ever see that beautiful person again. I am sad.